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my name is chantel hi if u r on here theres no point im not going to tell u anything like my secrets cya bye bye

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What am I afraid of and why?

Well...I leave for Florida on Thursday...and then I'm off to davidson on the 17th...my 18th bday actually. I'm afraid of leaving home again. Everytime I start a newyearabroad Ileave a bit of myself behind, and I lose part of my identity at home. When I come back, I will have changed and who knows if the piece I left behind will fit anymore? I'm afraid of not knowing who I am. I don't know what my expectationswill be in college. I'm terrified of being inadequate for school, for a significant other, for my parents and for myself. Wow...there is a long list of things that I am afraid of. But the one thing I have come to realize is that, despite the many forms that it takes, the only thing I am afraid of is the unknown. I can face fears that I am sure of but how do you face off against the unfamiliar and the obscured?

I feel like I'm in limbo at the moment, still in mid-air after leaping blindfolded off of a cliff. Where, how and when will I land?

Hi Diary,

Today has been pretty boring nothing much happened !!!

All I really did....is....well.....erm...swimming and I biked to my Granddma's and Granddad's. Nothing much I suppose !

At the mo I have got my cousion and my brother sitting with me (well was my brother he's now gone!)

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Hi I am called ROXI ok ?????

I AM SOOOOOOOO COOLIO N U WILL FIND OUT WHY SOON !

LOL (LAUGH OUT LOUD !!!!)

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I ain't THAT stuck up chu know !!!!!!

Be kind, for everyone you know is facing a great battle - Philo of Alexandria.

This really helps me to manage people. Everyone around me - me included is broken. We all face our battles. I face mine, so it requires no great stretch of the imagination to realise everyone else is facing theirs.

So when they're short, abrupt, absent, irritated, down, I don't take it personally, I just realise they are facing a great battle.

Helps me become compassionate to remember this and maybe compassion is one of the greatest weapons we have in this great battle.